This week we are back to the online book study of Jo Ann Fore’s new book “When a Woman Finds Her Voice.” We are diving into Chapter 5 – “A Purpose For The Pain. Those moments in life when it’s hard to understand and we find ourselves asking God “Why?”
Have you ever been there? I’m sure you have. We all have. Life brings difficulties, unexpected surprises, right hand turns and sharp lefts. Often we think we’re alone, and yet, in this space hopefully you discover you are not.
Think on these questions a moment.
Has there been a time in your life when you’ve questioned God’s love for you? Have you wondered how He could possibly have a purpose in what you’re walking through?? How has God answered you? Are you still searching for answers? (Sarah Knepper – From Week 5 Book Study Prompts)
What memories come to mind? What rises up in your heart? Does it still choke the air from you, leave you breathless or a bit light headed?
It does the same thing to me too. Honestly, my life is not all it appears to be. I carry some deep scars from the past. Some places, by the grace of God, are fully healed. Others, are still tender to the touch. Yet other areas feel raw and oozing, maybe even a bit infected at times.
Several years ago our family walked through a very painful time. A time of great loss, of upheaval and change. Our business had to close, we sold our new home, and most painful of all? The loss of relationship. There were those that stuck closely, loved us through. But there were those, looking from the outside in, that quickly judged the external, without fully knowing the whole story. Stories spread and rumors grew, and in the end my heart hurt. Deeply. For a long, long time.
Looking back I vividly remember one particular day.
As I stood in the almost empty room, I wondered what I should pack next. Every item reminded me of the life we had built in that place. Memories flooded my heart and I wondered if things would ever be the same. The future seemed so uncertain and yet there seemed no choice but to move forward. It was in that moment that my heart cried out what it had been too afraid to question or utter before.
“God, I don’t get this? Why? Why are we walking through this? Have we not been faithful? Have we not loved you enough, served you enough, given enough? I just don’t get it! Why does it have to hurt so badly.”
It was at that moment that my mind began to circulate this question: “Is it worth it?”
“Is following God worth it?”
It was a scary thought for me because honestly, I have never, ever questioned that. While life had been difficult at times, I never found myself questioning my relationship with my God like that. And yet, in the end, I would discover that it was an important question.
I wrestled with it for days. I wondered what would happen if I just walked away? Walked away from God and his church? Walked away from the pain of it all? Truly, what would happen? If I thought people were talking now, what would they say then? Would they even care?
And as scary as that question was, it was important for me to wrestle it through. I had to know for myself why it mattered to me. It wasn’t even really about other people and what they might think. I had to know why I stood for my God and why he stood for me!
That as hard as this life is, I would much rather walk with God in it, than without him!
In John 16:33 we are told this:
““I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”
Trouble is going to come regardless if you walk with God or you don’t. There WILL be moments that take your breath away, that make you want to pull in and hide. Moments that you’re not sure how to take the next step…which way to go. Moments where you need to be carried because you just can not stand.
I don’t want to carry myself. I can’t. No human can do that for you. Meet that need in you. There is only one that can truly carry us like that. He’s my God, hopefully he is your’s too. If not, he can be. It’s simple, nothing complicated.
It’s holding your life up to him, asking him to free you from the sin that has entangled you – that entangles us all – And then asking him to come in, to be the Lord of your life.
He wants to carry you. To walk beside you through this hurting and painful world. He loves us like that. Loves us enough to stay. To walk close as we invite him to. To carry us as we question the pain.
May we let him carry us, when it’s too hard to stand. When the questions are too many for the answers at hand. That he will be our breathe when we can not breath, that he will be our shelter, our hiding place.
Is following God worth it? For me, it is.
Have you ever asked the question? What is the purpose for my pain? Or maybe, like me, you are asking – Is Following God Worth it?
Maybe you need prayer – So how can I pray for you? It would truly be an honor to pray for you and with you.
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“The name of the LORD is a strong tower; The righteous runs into it and is safe.” Proverbs 18:10
“”Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28
“For it is by believing in your heart that you are made right with God, and it is by confessing with your mouth that you are saved. 11 As the Scriptures tell us, “Anyone who trusts in him will never be disgraced.”12 Jew and Gentile are the same in this respect. They have the same Lord, who gives generously to all who call on him. 13 For “Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.” – Romans 10:10-13